Tuesday, January 29, 2013

FH People Are Emotional Eaters, too!


One of my friends who just had a baby posted on Facebook that she is likely to soon turn into a goldfish cracker. I am just guessing, because she’s busy being a new mom, eating whatever snacks are in her way, this could happen.

And I tell you what – some days lately I feel like I am going to turn into everything I eat, too.

I have had a love-love relationship with food lately. I would love to eat it, and it loves to tease me – constantly – to eat it, too. I usually eat … not so very healthy in the winter, as it is, just because I am so not a winter person and all that cold makes me do is crave gravies and mashed potatoes and hearty potato and bacon soups. Oy! I know, you’re thinking: suicide! And I agree!

On top of the winter blues, for reasons totally unrelated to FH, I have also had to take hormones. It’s a temporary thing, that will go away once I can be scheduled for a surgery (long story!). But for the past month or so, I feel like eating the paint off the walls because of these pills! I try really hard not to give in, but I swear I am gaining weight by just the thought of wanting to eat alone.

And when I do eat, it’s comfort food, and soft, warm, white carby messes. I made a kale and turkey sausage soup the other day (good!) and although it’s deliciously healthy, I am craving Pillsbury Grands with it! Again, I tried not to indulge. I just added a couple of spoonfuls of fat free sour cream for extra silkiness.

Some foods I have indulged into lately, however: (frozen) pizza, shrimp alfredo, Village Inn’s country skillet (comes with eggs, sausage, fried hash brown potatoes – to absolutely die for – and I am sure that’s what I am doing, too!), PF Chang’s Singapore street noodles – I keep telling myself they are healthy because of the veggies and because they are spicy, but they are fried…

I know this will get worse – as I will be going through surgery and then healing and one thing I don’t need is watching what I eat to ruin my mood. So, I write with a sigh, and hoping I can at least put things into perspective for me before I let this whole craziness take control of my life!

I am still trying some healthy tricks, in the meantime, just to remind me of the “good path”  – like still using low fat or no fat ingredients in my own cooking, and I have just introduced a glass of carrot juice a day for extra veggie intake. And a Vitamin C to help me boost this immune system that’s trying to kill a head cold for a month now …

I have subscribed to blog and news updates from low fat cooks and FH/ heart doctors, still hoping to keep me on track. But I am human. And the winter, coupled with the hormones and the slight moodiness about my newest diagnosis don’t help. I am not blaming anything or anyone on my lack of control, of course. Like said – just putting it into perspective …

I wish I could say it’s a lifestyle by now for me to just stick to a healthy regimen, but as you know – it’s a daily reminder and sometimes a daily struggle, too. As long as you give yourself room to fail, a couple of un- healthy breaks, here and there, forgiveness, love of yourself and much, much understanding. I think you’re still on the right path!

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