Some
people are obsessed, without needing to be, with gluten free food. Some are
obsessed with vegetarianism or vegan-ism. Some with the Paleo diet ( I know, 50
years from now, this will not make sense). Don’t you hate those snobs?!
I have
never been fixated on one diet or another, at any point in my life. And outside
of this blog, I really don’t talk much, with emphasis, about what I eat. But I
feel like the older I get, the more and more I am becoming intolerant about one
thing: fake food! All the chemicals and crap that they put in our food
nowadays! It just makes me sick, on top of scaring me.
One
day, we stepped, hungry and sleepy, first thing in the morning, in a local
bagel shop. The bagels and cream cheese were so good, we bought some. We ate
the bagels pretty fast but we had a whole tub of cream cheese which we could
not possibly eat in 2-3 sittings. A week later, the taste of the cheese started
to turn. A week and a half later, there were big chunks of brown and blue spots
inside of it –even stored in the fridge, in the dairy crisper. We normally buy Philadelphia cream cheese, and you know
what?! I have one of their tubs in the fridge since March – and it’s still
white and tastes the same as the first day. It’s August now. One thing I know
for sure: that’s not cheese! It’s Philadelphia
cream cheese, people! Do you know how much they sell a year?!
I was
reading the label on my bread one day, and I could not pronounce 80% of the
ingredients in that “product”. And that’s another thing … We watch a cooking
show or more every day, and all the chefs talk about their “products”. It’s not
food, or dishes anymore, it’s a “product”.
So,
now, I spend two hours at the grocery store instead of half an hour because I
read every label, and I nix 50% or more of the “products” I pick up to buy! It’s
pretty counterproductive.
But
seriously: I am not sure what’s going to happen to us. To our colon and our
bodies, all filled up with all the acids and “solutions” no one knows how to
pronounce. I decided there is no butter, no cheese that I can possibly buy that
is 100% made of milk. There probably isn’t any natural milk in America anymore.
So, lately, I have been pretty picky about food and what I eat. My husband’s aunt died of colon cancer this spring – and I can’t help but think that that will be the end of me, too: forget cholesterol, I have been living with it for close to 40 years. What’s going to kill me is all the poisons in my food. I just imagine all these chemicals coating my body from the inside, unable to be eliminated, because my body doesn’t understand how to handle them.
I ask
my husband to bake us bread more and more, because I can’t get myself to buy it
anymore. I asked my doctor where I could get fat free and all natural butter or
cheese. His answer was: “WOW! You do want everything, don’t you?!”
And I
guess I do, but shouldn’t we? I tell my husband all the time that I’m going to
go off the grid, completely. I’ll look into buying a plot of land in the middle
of Nothing, Montana, and live off of what I plant and grow myself. Sure, it
will still be full of pollution, but I feel like no one will add the crap on
top of the pollution in my food.
I can’t
even drink beer anymore lately. Wine, yes, it tastes close to my dad’s homemade
wine, still. But not beer. I even can taste the chemicals in the filter that
filters my water. I know our palates evolve as we age, but I hope mine is not
going to totally keep me away from any food at all, because there is not much
left out there to keep me full.
I am
afraid that the older I get, the more I am becoming one of those snobs that
talks all about how they only eat all natural things, all organic and
untainted. I am not there yet, but once I find that all organic butter and
cheese – you watch out, world! I’ll be even more stuck up than usual!
